I watched the last video this idiot made....(I refuse to even use his name)....and have put a lot of thought into it. I wanted to write something after hearing about this guy, who is now gratefully dead, but I wanted to wait and ruminate on it for a while.
First off, people are crap. All people. That includes me. There is something crappy about all of us. There is not one of us that has an ounce of goodness in them.
The problem with this ignoramus, and those of his ilk, is they never look inward. Oh BOO HOO, no girl would sleep with you. Turns out they were right not to. Lord knows we didn't need you breeding and having your mate spitting out a demon worse than those that were in you.
Yes, women are crap and the men they choose are crap and it wasn't fair that you were overlooked. Shut the hell up. There are nearly seven billion of us on this planet, and six billion nine hundred and ninety nine million of us are being overlooked every single day by the majority of the rest. Get over it if you feel like this moron did.
What? You wanted to be famous? You wanted to have a large circle of 'friends' around you that fawned and swooned over your every word? Who did you want to be like? Brad Pitt? Johnny Football? Obama? John Grisham? What a sniveling little worm you are to think you would EVER belong in any class like that. Didn't you ever listen to Nickelback? "You'll be on TV, when it starts to snow in hell." They're right. The vast, vast majority of us aren't even as big as an amoeba when compared to the universe, and you're whining because no girl has spread her legs for you? You were never going to be an 'alpha male' as you claimed killing people would make you. All you ended up being was a headline.
Yet, with all his griping and whining and belly aching, he was closer to the brass ring than most of us will EVER get. His dad was assistant director to one of the most popular movies ever made. He drove a brand new BMW for crying out loud. Hell, all my life I drove Fords and Chevy's and Dodge's that were second hand and nearly dead when I bought 'em. It wasn't until 2007 that I bought a 2001 Jaguar and it wasn't until 2011 that I bought a 2008 Mercedes. He lived in affluence and never had to work a day in his life. Let me trade places with you any day you idiot. I don't know why he didn't go to his dad and say, "Hey my man! How about a thousand so I can get me a high dollar hooker that will do anything I want?" Virginity gone...problem solved.
If there's one thing I've learned in life it's to take responsibility for myself. I make decisions every day, right or wrong...and then I live with them. I...live...with...them. And, I don't blame anybody else on this earth. I had chances and I made choices and that's why I am where I am today...for the most part and wherever that is. But there isn't any individual person out there who made my life what it is. I own it. All of it. To decide that those who have wronged you....whether perceived or real...is unfair and thus they must die, is to be nothing less than evil.
The other night I put my hands around my wife's neck and began to rub it on the sides, the back and the front. She says, "You going to strangle me?" I stopped for a second and said, "I'm an asshole. I'm not evil."
I may berate you. I may yell at you. I may dislike you. I may tell you to take a hike out of my life. But I will never blame another person for the problems in my life. And, neither should any of you. Live with what you have and strive to have more. And I'm not just talking about material things. Work on what you have inside, and strive to make it better. Otherwise, you might become nothing more than a headline....like this idiot. That is all.